Wishy, Washy and…Splashy Day?

Hello my friends! Did you ever have a dreary and teary day? Well let me tell you I sure did today. I couldn’t even get sentences out without crying. Felt like I wasn’t getting any real answers from my docs today. I think it’s all in the realm of appropriateness; but still challenging. I just keep thinking 2 months in a hospital, getting sicker and we have no true, confirmed diagnosis. Would make you teary too, wouldn’t it?

But, I chose the very “Joey” thing to do and fake it til I make it. Been waking up at 4am last 3 nights and wide awake. So today I decided to try to clean myself up, wipe off the dust and attempt to really look like myself it actually works pretty well you know, mind over matter….

But after I finished that, I was pleased with the end result, but still felt like I was hit by a MACK truck and beeep beeep beeep, reversed back over. That is everyday now so this new norm is tough. I’m alone outside of the amazing staff here pretty much most of the time. And, c’mon, anyone that knows me knows I love company and I love a live audience. Almost feed off the energy to be my silly self. It’s worked for 53 years. Now, nothing seems to work. I even wore sparkly eye shadow- women will appreciate that statement. Or the old, “ I shaved my legs for this?” Approach to life.

Shorter post tonight. I’m exhausted and since my feeding tube is being placed this week, I’m eating like I’m going to the chair this week. All the fave foods I’m miss having. Luckily, my support network has been amazing about procuring these favorite things.

So, I bid you farewell for the night. Hope you are all having a not dreary and /or teary day.

Thanks for all the love and support!

Love,

~ Joey

Oooo….i missed splashy….

ps- how did I not tell you this?!😜 perfect Monday addition to my 4am morning wake up and shower, was when I dropped my cell phone in the toilet, with the pop socket wallet and credit cards and all. Heart rate literally jumped to 154, nurses are running in, I’m very naked retrieving my phone. From. The. Toilet. Ok, clean all of that up, phone still works (sigh of relief) only to drop just the phone this time back into said tonight!!!!! Are you getting my dreary teary vibe?

But wait, there’s more, I proceeded to drop the poo- pouri in the toilet. To be honest, I really REALLY wanted to just flush it. But, I didn’t. What would you have done?